My motivation

Why am I telling about the Knowing?

Why am I being like an ambassador for using it?
Yes, I enjoy using it and actively using it makes a great deal of difference to my life. Why not keep that nicely to myself and get on with it all, without bothering trying to show other people this?
For the most part, they don’t believe this anyway, or think it has nothing to do with them or the quality of their daily lives.

There is a huge dichotomy in my motivation.

Yes, my active use in my everyday life and current understanding of how it works, makes a great deal of difference to my life.
You don’t hear me say: all smelling like roses. There is a good reason for that: it isn’t. Very often there are rough patches.

In the process of discovering this all, I re-developed my empathic abilities. They got nicely tucked away when I was about 6 years old. Being able to sense what is going on in other people (and making comments or asking questions on how their behaviour related to what I was sensing) was highly unappreciated and actively discouraged. I found out, that in order to survive socially in this world, the sixth sense, or whatever you’d like to call it, needs to be switched off. And so I did.

But at the age of 40, my soul stirred, longing for being myself, for being the whole and complete creative harmonious and social being I am. For living, rather than existing, I opened myself up for using my sixth sense again, my ability to derive information from energy vibes.

And although I was afraid I was going’ nuts’ and knew that I was stepping away from the main stream, my cultural programming and social conventions..... something important motivated me: I had never felt so alive and complete before.

Talking to life itself and listening to what it explained to me, about itself, its natural ways it s natural built in faculties for achieving harmony and wellbeing.... is so beautiful and it adds up so much better than what ‘society’ says. 

I learned, more and more to trust what my sixth sense is telling me and doing so has brought so much clarity and peace and harmony in my inner world.

But if the world has changed much since 1978 ( when I was 6), living with soul, living with energy awareness, being open and honest to yourself and others has not become mainstream.

So here I am in 2015, an empath with knowledge on the natural energetic processes in man on how to have a healthy functioning emotional (energy in motion) household.
Whenever I stick my nose in the outside world, being so open, it hits me how much emotional suffering is going on, because I literally  feel it myself. On the carrier waves of energy, the very same sensations a person experiences, the very same thought patterns, reach me and I feel it, I know what is going on because I experience it myself.
Asking questions about it, openly, is just as a mine field as it was in the seventies and often I find myself in situations where I simply have to respect that people chose to pretend to be happy, while their whole system is conveying energetically the exact opposite.... and I resonate with them on the levels of what is really there...pain..... joy, unexpressed.

Yes, I can put a filter on, in order not to be completely blown away and exhausted by this.
But I promised myself never to switch it completely off again, for the sake of fitting in. Fitting into what.... a disharmonious society where people are born to suffer attempting to follow mainstream rules ( which also prescribes to pretend you are something you are currently not) and then die miserably?

You can see why I find socialising for the sake of socialising such a tough activity, nowadays.

Sometimes, there is an opening and people are curious about what they can do themselves, to have a healthy, harmonious energetic household. I always share my insights to those who show interest.
These suggestions are, by nature, simple.
In the eyes of most people, considered to be unconventional ( as in.... not mainstream, not what is considered normal by the majority of people around).

As a result of the label ‘ unconventional’ that means they are viewed with suspicion.... doing this simple thing is supposed to help with my major emotional issues?
Since it looks so unbelievable, more often than not, the suggestion is put to the side.

And I have wondered... if people were to implement these small things... what would happen?

Could it be true that anybody who looks after their own energy household better, becomes more empathic and has as a result of that more trouble fitting in and functioning in the social fabrics of society?
Is ‘walking a spiritual path’ as some call it, always a lonely journey?
If that is the thought than I can see why people don’t chose it.... we are all ( like me) at soul level social beings. We need to be part of a community, it is built in our systems! Better miserable, but ‘in’, than ‘ happy in ourselves’ but ‘ out’.... ?

I could turn my back at the whole of society, being faced with all the challenges I face as an empath who’s suggestions end up in bins more often than not. Just being happy in my own little world and letting the world get on with it.
But I don’t, because the harmonious social being I am believes that there is so much more fun to be had, so much more interesting conversations to be had, good experiences to be shared, a more harmonious society to be woven.... one all the empaths in this world would love to be in, glowing in shared joy.

That image, that possibility, in my mind, is not a society of lonely people keeping themselves to themselves, not fitting in the social fabric.  It is a society of open, honest people naturally radiating and sharing on all levels true harmony.

A society where the currently conventional patterns of ‘ suffering in solitude’ will  become unconventional, because it isn’t necessary and it isn’t natural.
To me, there is nothing in there to be scared about in that image.

And so I keep pioneering and endure the regularly experienced burdens of being an unconventional empath sharing unconventional insights in a conventional world, with as much grace and peace of mind as I can, up till the day where unconventional becomes conventional.

If I don’t live it and share my joy, ( like the many pioneers all over this world, doing what is in their nature to contribute joyfully) ..... I know...... unnatural- conventional will stay in fashion much longer than necessary.